1. Silenced (Back
to Top) Sticker This,
Censor This, Ban this
We've got something to say
Police this, condemn this, damn this
We'll be heard anyway
Middle finger is the flag that I wave when I'm
Silenced...
Listen here...
Is it a possibility?
That we are all just equal,
Slam the power down,
Abusing...
Doesn't it piss you off to be beat at your own game
You lead us with false morals and shelter reality
No more...We're not buying your product when
Your selling The words preaching..Silence
Insult me in my home,
When you were never invited,
To live life on your curve,
Frustrating,
Throw sticks into the spokes,
To releive insecurities,
Stifle all ascension and sticker our freedom of speech
Sticker This, Censor This, Ban this
We've got something to say
Police this, condemn this, damn this
We'll be heard anyway
Middle finger is the flag that I wave when I'm
Silenced...
Dont tell me what I want,
Dont tell me what I need,
Dont tell me how I need to feel,
I feel, god damn nothing
Dig the eyes out of my face and I can still see right
Fucking through you,
Fuck you and everything you are
I'm me, we're us and thats all
Closed mind with a forum to criticize,
Keep your policy and I have mine,
Exploit me, fabricate your lies,
We empower these cowards just to be left in
Silence
Listen here...
Stand on my soapbox,
And speak my own peace,
Whatever you may think,
Its real,
Prevail through what is me,
And step on your own beleifs
Thieving spineless sellouts, robing our integrity
Bring it on!
Sticker This, Censor This, Ban this
We've got something to say
Police this, condemn this, damn this
We'll be heard anyway
Middle finger is the flag that I wave when I'm...
2. Trapped in The Wake of a
Dream (Back to Top)
Do i deserve these beatings hating me
while their cut cut the
noose let me fall away im growing weak and tired of you and
your little selfish games FUCK-ING pushing me you pull the
trigger trapped in the wake of your DREAM
your ok always fucknig pushing me insulting me i found your
gun i have fonud the strength of cutting me
your time all i will and this is so i stop the blood horns and
scales hooked needles were trying to find the strength of
meaning you
the sanctuary throwing the name so i run through to the
lgiht weepin throguh a cloud darkened by a tanted dream
of me being pummled by the tide crushing killing me trapped
in the wake of a DREAM
your ok always fucknig pushing me insulting me i found
your gun i have fonud the strength of cutting me
your time all i will and this is so i stop the blood horns and
scales hooked needles were trying to find the strength of
meaning you
lonely, call the truths of the leaving any more and more
come hurt hurt the truths of the leaving im so weak inside
shadow hide and seek but you never looked always behind
the door call out clap a hand and speed in god bless us no more
IIIIIIII HAVVE FOUND YOOUUUUUUU NOW
WAAAAAAAAAKE UPPPP
dream so weak no trust distort reality of what is mine
through life this mind awakens and sucked the life from me
and now awakened dreaming forgotten past future becomes
MIIIIINE
does it take
all away
take it thorugh
all your life
now i found mine
bitter taste
all is mine
take control
your ok always fucknig pushing me insulting me
i found your gun i have fonud the strength of cutting me
your time all i will and this is so i stop the blood horns and
scales hooked needles were trying to find the strength of
meaning you
3.
Not Falling (Back
to Top) Always, known
in, all my time,
A little left of center now
Reflect as I realize,
That all I need is to find the middle pillar path to sit like the sun
by a
Star in the sky and just be.
Sinners, casting stones at me
I…I stand, not crawling, not falling down
I…I bleed the demons that drag me down
I…I stand, (for nothing),not crawling, (the center),not falling down
(of calms within the eye)
I…I’ll bleed, (for no one),the demons, (but myself),that pull me down
(for me and no one else)
Goodbye, sunshine, I’ve put it out again, sad
I’m over, personalities, conflicting,
I don’t need you, or anyone, but me,
I’ll just be, living my own life,
I feel my glowing center grow, infecting I feel alive,
Shovel dirt over lime,
Plant it in myself to sit like a seed under covers of earth and just
be
Sinners, pointing fingers at me
I…I stand, (for nothing),not crawling, (by myself),not falling down
I…I bleed, (for no one), the demons, (but myself), that drag me down
I…I stand, (for nothing),not crawling, (the center),not falling down
(of calms within the eye)
I…I’ll bleed, (for no one),the demons, (but myself),that pull me down
(for me and no one else)
Come play kill.
Refuse my body, refuse my shadow
Stone cold will
Refuse to lead this, refuse to follow
Bitter pills
Refuse to feed this, refuse to swallow, I’m fueled godless
Come play, come play
Kill
Just be, just be
I…I stand, (for nothing),not crawling, (by myself),not falling down
I…I bleed, (for no one), the demons, (but myself), that drag me down
I…I stand, (for nothing),not crawling, (the center),not falling down
(of calms within the eye)
I…I’ll bleed, (for no one),the demons, (but myself),that drag me down
(for me and no one else) 4.
(Per)Version of a Truth (Back to Top)
When everything is lost
Haunting us with questions
Will we ever find the smiling side is hidden behind the sweating eyes
Dead inside a scream
That's pouring from me
I'm planted in this skin this dirty filthy skin
The bird behind the walls the bearer of a gift Fuck You Gift
Truth does not exist
But the lies do
Truth does not exist
But the lies do
They're buried in the skin Evolved
Perversion of a truth
I'm stuck here,
Inside of life bearing in me you are
Born into a world, never asked to be here,
Doesn't exist
It doesn't exist
Truth
Doesn't exist
It doesn't exist
Truth
Always inside a tragedy
Marooned as I remember
Try and let me go up to space
The fool that fell from heaven
HEAVEN
Perversion of a truth, I'm stuck here,
Inside of life bearing in me you are
Born into a world, never asked to be here
Doesn't exist
Doesn't exist
Truth
Maybe we're all children of a star
Misguided in direction, a misdirection
Pardon me while I pray for NONE
IM NOT THE ONLY ONE that walks between the rain
There are many
IM NOT THE ONLY ONE and everything is lost that doesn't surrender
Perversion of a truth
I'm stuck there
Inside of life, bearing in me you are
I walked into a world never asking me
Versions of the truth
IM NOT THE ONLY ONE
Your versions of the truth
I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE
Your versions of the truth
IM NOT THE ONLY ONE
Your versions of the truth
IM NOT THE ONLY ONE
LIES
LIES
LIES
LIES
LIES
LIES 5. Mercy, Severity (Back
to Top) We've come
here, from so far away,
i can save you,
if you leave it all behind
this suffering's, been far too long,
would you take a trip with me
on the back of a star,
i feel like earth's gravity is just here to pull
us down,
mother of creation wait, embrace the souls
of a lost world,
carry them away
darkness, negative, receptive
pour firmament between our waters
seperate the space
mother of destruction wait
with a belt of skulls strap me down
and send the ship away
progress with the process, mine the souls
from their casts
pour form and reshape
this dark womb
wraps and covets me
refining understanding, if you open up
the heart,
nurturing, this phenominon
we carry you on our wings, our wings
through the dark
lightning flashes of insight,
into the murk of a dark sky
pain of division is nothing
joy of dissoloution, is everything
mother of creation wait,embrace the souls
of a lost world, carry them away
darkness, negative, receptive
pour firmament between our waters
seperate the space
mother of destruction wait,
with a belt of skulls strap me down and
send the ship away
progress with the process, mine the souls
from their casts,
pour form and reshape
portal sits deep within the eye,
the eye of yin's severity
rewards understanding
blackness consumes body comforts core of
nothing....
mother i can remember, a vault of security
can you take me away
would you take me away
wont you take me away
.....away.....
mother of creation wait, embrace the souls of a lost world,
carry them away
darkness, negative, receptive
pour firmament between our waters
seperate the space
mother of destruction wait, with a belt of skulls strap me down and
send the ship away
progress with the process, mine the souls
from their casts
pour form and reshape 6.
A
World so Cold (Back to Top)
When passions lost
and all the trust is gone
way too far, for way too long
childen crying
cast out and neglected
only in a world so cold
only in a world this cold
hold the hand of your best friend
look into their eyes
then watch them drift away
some might say we've done the wrong things
for way too long, for way too long
fever inside the storm
so im turning away
away from the name (calling your names)
away from the stones (throwing sticks and stones)
'cause im through the mending the wounds of us
keep your thorns
'cause im running away
away from the games (fucking head games)
away from the space (hate this head space)
the circumstances of a world so cold
burning whispers, remind me of the days
i was left alone, in a world this cold
guilty of the same things
provoked by the cause
ive left alone, in a world so cold
fever inside the storm
so im turning away
away from the name (calling your names)
away from the stones (throw sticks and stones)
'cause im through mending the wounds of us
keep your thorns
'cause im running way
away from the games (fucking head games)
away from this space (hate this head space)
the circumstances of a world so cold
im flying, im flying away
away from the names (calling your names)
away from the games (fucking head games)
the circumstances of a world so cold
why does everyone feel like my enemy
dont want any part of depression or darkness
ive had enough
sick and tired
bring the sun
or im gone, or im gone
im backing out
im no pawn
no mother fucking slave to this
never lied
never left
never lived
never loved
never lost
never hurt
never worry about being me or anything else
not a care
no concern
dont give a shit abot anything
backing out
giving up
no mother fucking slave to this
never lied
never left
never lived
never loved
never lost
never hurt
never worry about being me or anyone else
not a care
no concern
dont give a shit about anything
i need to find
a darkened corner
a lightless corner
where its safer and calmer
im turning away
away from the names (calling your names)
away from the stones (throwing sticks and stones)
'cause im through mending the wounds of us
im running away
away from the games (fucking head games)
away from the space (hate this head space)
the circumstances of a world so cold
im flying, im flying away
away from the names (calling your names)
away from the games (fucking head games)
the consequences of a world so cold
7. The Patient Mental (Back
to Top) Patient,
just as i am,
as always,
watch the time go by,
nothing left to pass by,
the minutes follow me,
drunken little people,
work away in me,
why won't they leave me, leave me alone,
when i don't even want me, want me
i have to, kill the words,
before they, form my sentence,
the sentence that is me,
judge by those that carry,
the patient sits in cradled arms,
that comfort me by strangling
why won't they leave me, leave me alone,
when i don't even want me, want me
the patient mental sits and stares,
an idle mind that's empty , screaming
staring back
why won't they leave him, leave him alone
a passive speared ritual
driven by our war ship... the hate driven envy
they have to kill the meal,
before they can consume,
consume my inner peace,
without the understanding,
trapped inside the works,
the hands are moving me
the patient mental sits and stares,
an idle mind that's empty , screaming
staring back
why won't they leave him, leave him alone
a passive speared ritual
driven by our war ship... the hate driven envy
release me,
let me go,
why do they observe me ?
there's nothing here to cure,
i can see the silhouettes,
that sit behind the mirror,
i'm just like a clock upon the wall,
always moving, but never going anyway
the patient mental sits and stares,
an idle mind that's empty , screaming
staring back
why won't they leave him, leave him alone
a passive speared ritual
driven by our war ship... the hate driven envy
8. Skrying (Back
to Top) This puzzle's
dead inside
Missing pieces growing eyes,
Mystery
Little girls severity,
Little boys begging mercy
Sticks break on me
Cost of life at 23
Price of pain a broken ring
All crimson
Melting body rubber world
Battle axe with locks of curls
Introverted
My cost, the price of a broken doll, can you
Remember that place
The place you would go to make things okay,
1000 points for insect stings,
Glue my spirit, break my wings,
Misery
Libido steams infectious whore,
Cauterize and forge the sword,
Remember killing.
Children, learning the secret knock, a nickel
To enter that place,
The place you would go to make things okay,
My cost, the price of a broken doll, can you
Remember that place
The place you would go to take pain away,
Games of passion taste so sweet
Cut his throat and slaughter meat,
My secrets.
Seven heads for seven seas,
Darkened voices plead disease
Dismembering me
Children, wrestle to seal the bag, storing it deep
In that place,
The place you would go and try to escape
Children, learning the secret knock, a nickel
To enter that place,
The place you would go to make things okay,
My cost, the price of a broken doll, can you
Remember that place
The place you would go to take pain away,
Skrying through reflections in a pool,
I see death coming, mowing down,
Do you remember the bedroom,
Was it your cell or was it your tomb,
You're living through my hell
Children, learning the secret knock, a nickel
To enter that place,
The place you would go to make things okay,
My cost, the price of a broken doll, can you
Remember that place
The place you would go to take pain away
9. Solve et Coagula (Back
to Top) Fire, fire
I dissolve and solidify,
Destroy to recreate,
Disassemble to assemble something pure,
Our rubic sol-ve-et-co-ag-u-la
Kill to be born again, cycled a thousand times
Fire, planetary alchemy,
Fire, the time is here now
Fire, four corners to rise
Fire rise!
Fire, there's always loss within,
Fire, the cleansing it's time
Fire, shooting arrows to the sky
Fire
I construct a new institution
Not out of bricks, iron, cement, concrete
Or steel
Our rubic sol-ve-et-co-ag-u-la
Distill to purify,
We've done it a thousand times
Fire, planetary alchemy,
Fire, the time is here now
Fire, four corners to rise
Fire rise!
Fire, there's always loss within,
Fire, the cleansing it's time
Fire, shooting arrows to the sky
Fire
Burn, bleed all the lives of life, ascend to
The sky
Burn, all the martyrs
Fire, planetary alchemy,
Fire, the time is here now
Fire, four corners to rise
Fire rise!
Fire, there's always loss within,
Fire, the cleansing it's time
Fire, shooting arrows to the sky
Fire 10.
Shadow of a Man (Back
to Top) Mirror, mirror,
upon the wall
I'm asking you, who is the most confused, of them all
Mirror, mirror, subservient twins
Screams back at me, you, you sick, flawless mind
I wanna break you!
(Yeah!)
You're a clever one
Do you reflect me, or do I reflect you
Are you inside of another world
I wanna break through!
(Yeah!)
You're a clever one
Is this a tool?
And I'm not through
To find another plane, I'm or just a shadow of a man
Superficial tool
To suppress your vanity of weak
When you don't love yourself
If this is made for, all your sign
I'll break your existence, and cut through mine!
(Yeah!)
You're a clever one
Are you a tool?
And it's not through
To find another plane, I'm just a shadow of a man
Are you my brother, or you look like me
Trapped inside another world
My last win
Just a superficial tool, just a fucked up entity
When you don't love yourself
Mirror, upon the wall, am I a reflection of you?
Mirror, upon the wall, are you staring back?
Understanding, as a place within my world
On this side
Are you a fool?
And it's not through
To find another plane, I'm just a shadow of a man
Are you my brother, or you look like me
Trapped inside another world
My last win
Are you a tool?
Cause that's just true
To find another plane, I'm just a shadow of a man
Just a superficial tool, just a fucked up entity
We carry on ourselves All over
with:
Fuck all the flags, the greed, the world leaders.
Run for the fence:
We're coming, we're killing, we're changing the faces.
Believe in yourself:
Let go of ego, strengthen within yourself.
All over with:
We're coming, we're killing, we're changing the faces.
I'm killing,
every fucking thing
Until somebody gets this fucking point.
The point I'm trying to make.
I lead,
the mice on parade.
Down to the river of Kool-Aid;
And open up the flood gates.
I need a barrel of Cyanide; A pile of Strychnine
Until the whole damn world is dead.
Start
over again.
All over with:
Fuck all the flags, the greed, the world leaders.
Run for the fence:
We're coming, we're killing, we're changing the faces.
Stop talking...
Negotiating...
Your feeble attempts towards world peace.
(hah! gimme a fuckin' break!)
Need worldwide genocide;
Planetary suicide.
And when the whole damn world is dead:
There's your fucking peace.
12. The End Of All
Things To Come (Back to Top)
All over with:
Fuck all the flags, the greed, the world leaders.
Run for the fence:
We're coming, we're killing, we're changing the faces.
Believe in yourself:
Let go of ego, strengthen within yourself.
All over with:
We're coming, we're killing, we're changing the faces.
Oxygen Wasters...
Come on.
We've come to save you...
save you from yourselves.
Kill or be killed.
We've come to save you...
save you from yourselves.
Kill or be killed.
All over with:
Fuck all the flags, the greed, the world leaders.
Run for the fence:
We're coming, we're killing, we're changing the faces.
Believe in yourself:
Let go of ego, strengthen within yourself.
All over with:
We're coming, we're killing, we're changing the face
13. A Key to Nothing (Back
to Top) no more
doors
no more locks
no more windows
no more box
no more no less
no more nothing less
no more six foot digs
no more hypocrites
no more emptiness
no more consequence
no more puppet strings
no more disease
no more growing up
no more happiness
no more lying down
no more complacence
i have
i hold the key to notihng
it's a small killing
murder
murder's in the hands
of motion...as it seems to be
no more nothing
no more anything
no more you
no more me
no more posturing victories
no more nations to defeat
no more speaking truth
no more deceit
no more holding down
no more pushing me
no more new world order
no more ANARCHY
i have
i hold the key to nothing
it's a small killing
murder
murder's in the hands
of motion...as it seems to be
im washing my hands...of the whole thing(X3)
i want no more nothing!(X4)
i have
i hold the key...to nothing
it's a small killing
murder
murder's in the hands
of motion...as it seems to be
i'm washing my hands, of everything
of everything we are
2. Dig (Back
to top)
I would
love to beat the face,
Of any mother fucker that's thinkin' they can change me,
White knuckles grip pushing through for the gold,
If you're wantin' a piece of me I broke the mother fuckin' mold,
I'm drowning in your wake
Shit rubbed in my face
Teething on concrete
Gums bleeding
Dig bury
me underneath
Everything that I am rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was slowly changing
I
struggle in violated space,
Sell out motherfuckers in the biz that try to fuck me,
Hang from their T's rated P.G. insight,
I ain't sellin' my soul when there's nothing to buy
I'm livid in my space
Pissing in my face
Fuck you while you try
To fuck me
Dig bury
me underneath
Everything that I am rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was you ain't fuckin' changing me
Let me
help you tie the rope around your neck,
Let me help to talk you the wrong way off the ledge,
Let me help you hold the glock against your head
Let me help you tie the rope around your neck,
Let me help to talk you the wrong way off the ledge,
Let me help you hold the glock up to your head,
Let me help to chain the weights onto your legs
Get on the plank fuck
Dig bury
me underneath
Everything that I am rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was slowly changing
Wish you were committing
Suicide suckin' on a mother fuckin' tailpipe
Dead man dangling from a tight rope
Limbless in the middle of a channel bob away
3.
Internal Primates Forever (Back
to top)
Cop
provisions feed my addictions mistakes I made then
I opened up the holes and they crawled in,
Now when it's time for the feed they won't let me forget,
They ride upon my back and they'll fuck me with their need,
My invisible enemies all my monkeys
Their
coming they're coming their coming they're coming to take me away.
Disgusted
with my position so submissive I am the only way we get away is give in
sharpen up the razors stab the needles into pipes to kill cravings so
sick of this in me can't stand the want to need can't get free always
got a grip on me
There's
no use to fight this wrenching tourniquet of deprivation obedience
subservience leads to substance
Do you
want more give it to me
Leave my
motivation to chemical dependency no room for patience
Don't want it need it come on right now
(chorus
voice 2)
Everything I've become now is everything I didn't want to be
Every
time I try to run away I fall on my face they drag me back
Every time I try to run away I fall on my face
Help!
They won't leave me alone
If I
would have known back then what I know now I 'd take it back
If I would have known back then what I know now I 'd take it back,
I'd take it back I'd take it all fuckin' back
Stay away
stay away
Hold me I'm shaking violently
Pull me out of my covering
Mold me into a new man
Lull me into a deep sleep
There's
no use to fight this wrenching tourniquet of deprivation obedience
subservience leads to substance
Even if
you want you can't stop
Internal
primates forever
4. -1(Back
to top)
Losses,
losers and more, gain of life's pleasures cohorts listen behind the
doors to a life meaningless less than 0 in me all my walls falling down
pains aloft misery
I'm sure that the lessons were learned I'm sure that the punishments
went well deserved by the pawn in the plan taste of shit bitterness walk
from me everything systematically
Come on
youweretheone youweretheone,
To dredge up shit inside of me in my pointless life of nothing
Tell me what I'm supposed to be
Tell me who I'm supposed to be
Tell me what it takes to ascend
Tell me what it takes to live
Patience,
pleasures and rewards, come in due time stare at the sun I'm bored in a
life meaningless soaking up all of me like the cross you worship life is
loss look at me I'm sure that some day we'll wake up I'm sure that some
day we'll wake from the dream
Of success and focus...tunneling to the light glowing deep inside of me
your taunting I wake up
Come on
youweretheone youweretheone,
To dredge up shit inside of me in my pointless life of nothing
Tell me what I'm supposed to be
Tell me who I'm supposed to be
Tell me what it takes to ascend
Tell me what it takes to live
Tell me nOW!
Tell me nOW!
Pain
misery distress dismal know where depressed idiot failure
In me......calling......loser......man I'm the
Loser......loser.....loser......in me......who I am....in me....
Don't
feel sorry don't feel sorry for me
Don't need your sympathy or empathy, don't need your sympathy inside of
me,
Don't need your sympathy or empathy, don't need your sympathy inside of
me,
Don't feel sorry don't feel sorry for me
Come on
I know youweretheone youweretheone
Numb to feelings inside of me why I've seized my vision
Don't need you to tell me who to be
Don't need you to tell me what to be
Don't need you to tell me how to ascend
Don't need you to tell me how to live
5.
Death Blooms (Back
to top)
Cold
seems crippling lame meander through corridors aroma's thick with age
mark off the day reflections of my life are fading
Pull me
out of body don't want it don't want in,
Feeble frail and rotting descending I'm lost in,
A structure that's collapsing don't want it cast into,
Maker take the body don't want it wants me
Past has
found its place salvation is no more will god accept my peace bleached
will pardon me reflections of my life are fading
Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in,
Feeble frail and rotting descending I'm lost in,
A structure that's collapsing don't want it cast into,
Maker take the body don't want it wants me
I just
want to run fly kites wrestle jump and play
Swim through waves that crash to shore memories in me
cocooned in misery
I'm sick
and tired of embracing reflections of past time receive me or cast me
away
...god please take me away
resistance futile suicidal ideas I will crucify my own being satisfy
selfish needs fuck the deities justify my own right to what's waiting
for me
On the
other side the time has come lock and load I'm coming I'm coming I'm
coming I'm coming home
Pull me
out of body don't want it don't want in,
Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in,
Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in,
Feeble frail and rotting descending I'm lost in,
A structure that's collapsing descending don't want it,
Maker take the body don't want it wants me,
Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in,
Feeble frail and rotting descending I'm lost in,
A structure that's collapsing descending don't want it,
Maker take the body don't want it wants me
I just
want to run fly kites wrestle jump and play
Swim through waves that crash to shore memories in me
cocooned in misery
The darkness overcomes soul soars to the other plain
Existence past the door I sail through purgatory's bay
I asked a
god for poison cradle me sown to my dreams souls searching death
blossoms where clouds lie over me held in god's hands death blooming
Dark for
fear of failure an inner gloom as wide as an eye and fermenting roiling
hate death grip in my veins unveiling rancid petals flowering forth foul
nectar the space between a blink and a tear
...death blooms.
7.
Cradle (Back
to top)
Breathe...
Push...
...I lost you, you were my god thought what do I do now
you were never there for me never there to carry me,
26 years looking back that time is gone it was you I believed in look
what you've done to me realize what you've done to
Me
I can't
see going on in this darkness I'm blind beneath my cradle the bough has
broke, I exorcise my loss your lie the punishment
It takes
time to try to mend the wounds of all the suffering,
What do I do now all I'm asking from you please send me a sign to guide
me through the times that lie in front of me I'll get by myself
Look at
me now, a piece of shit like you.
Look at me now, you left me so fuck you.
Everybody
leaves me, everybody's gone.
Watch my father leave me, there's nobody left.
Feels like I've never been loved.
Everybody leaves me, never gave a shit about me.
Everybody's gone, I'll rot in my head alone.
I don't give a fuck about you, go the fuck away .
Fake
being, inside of my heart you are the liar.
Innocence displaced.
Been left.
Here I
stand now and I'm alone,
With no one to comfort me.
One set of footprints in the sand.
No one to take my hand, I'll .
I'll walk through as long as I need.
I'll drift through my life though I'm alone.
Outgrown the cradle that once housed me
And I've found that all I need is
Me.
Found
I've never needed you to push through
All the shit that stacks up inside of my life.
Endless plight that circulates through my body.
I'll keep stumbling, beating, pummeling
Teething on the rind and renounce my being.
I can't
see going on.
I can't
see
I'm so tired, of trying to mend the wounds of all my suffering.
What do I do now?
All I'm asking from you please,
Send me a sign
To guide me through the times that lie in front of me.
I'll get by myself
I can't
see going on fuck it.
8.
Nothing To Gein (Back
to top)
Cold and
silent, soiled face I will wash it all away,
With my love,
That's all she's ever needed, from me
It's my time, to mother,
One of my own in my life,
I am so alone, left with no one
In my life, I'm so alone
Life
submissiveness,
Hypnotizing the ignorant a little boy's best friend's always his mother,
At least that's what she said,
Life of a simple man,
Taught that everyone else is dirty,
And their love is meaningless,
I'm just a soiled dirty boy,
I'm just a soiled dirty boy,
Sheltered
life innocence,
Insulated memories, spark reflections of my head,
Duality in my consciousness,
Caught in the war of hemispheres,
Between the love lost in my head,
Mommy do you still live inside of me,
I'm so lost in my life without any guiding,
Protected me my whole life from everything,
Nailed shut the doors to the shrine,
To screen your dead eyes from me and my sickness,
Mutilate and sew my new clothes for masquerading,
Aprons of flesh corpse scalped hair with skin upon my face,
Deliver
the remains from her womb of earth,
Prep the rack and tie up for new love's rebirth,
Covert understanding of novice surgery,
I'll focus concentration and only take just what I need
For sickness I'm masticating,
Dancing and masturbating,
Celebrate in fields of night with skin upon my face
If I soak
my hands in others blood am I sick,
If I wash my hands in others blood am I sick,
If I drench myself in others blood am I sick,
If I bathe myself in others blood
Blame
mother for the sickness,
Mutilate and sew my new clothes for masquerading,
Aprons of flesh corpse scalped hair with skin upon my face,
Dance and masturbate in night light by myself..
Nothing
is left for me to gain they're coming to take me far away,
Chorus
Life of a
simple man taught that everyone else is dirty and love is meaningless
I'm so soiled
Soiled
10.
Everything And Nothing (Back
to top)
We
swallow the spit,
Steal acceptance lend denial,
Telling me that my life is free and boundless,
Then I'm forced to stay between the lines,
They construct death to demolish life,
Plant the seeds to harvest loss,
Found empty truth is full of lies,
We're
hoping for despair,
Starvation's gluttony,
Subtle chaotic peace,
War divided unity,
Pro life, pro choice,
Blinded insight,
Left wing, right wing,
Black, white,
Leaders following,
I am
everything I am nothing,
Stop
fuckin' with me, I'm the accused I'm not the enemy
You're so confused no way you could enlighten me,
No freedom trapped in slavery, deceitful honesty mother fuckin' human
not a machine
Lay your
hands upon me,
In search for answers inviting,
Constant struggle inside me,
Guide me through this nothing that's everything
I am
everything I am nothing
11.
Severed (Back
to top)
And we
hide behind,
Lies, anger, Hate they shoo love away,
Build shells of ourselves outside,
It shelters body from cold reigns of reality,
Come on,
Step out, of your rind, assemble strength, focus,
Release
and run to me you can never look back to the visions from the past they
fade and wilt in time,
You've got to just trust me to hold your hand through,
Then I turn and walk away,
Eclipse
you,
And bleed you strip you of your states of ain soph aur,
Eclipse you,
I spit up on my plate and I push everything away,
I need,
And we sever all ties,
It creates disruption midst circle of friends,
I become the sacrifice,
Spare your life and leave me to my misery,
Get off
the cross, and save yourself, run away
Run now
get away from me if I can get my grip I'll pull you down into the hell I
call my head you'll never get away
I sit down in my ugly place and build walls out of fragments from my
past of all the people that I needed and loved that walked away,
You've
got to just trust me to hold your hand through then I'll turn and walk
away
I walk
under the clouds of gray,
Sphere of storms in my head,
I'm
trapped again in endless rain
I divorce the thoughts of you I love with me,
I divorce your innocence and my guilt,
I divorce the lying sellout confidence,
I'm divorcing every mother fuckin' thing
I divorce the love bled meaningless,
I divorce the makeshift harmony,
I divorce the taunting acts of violence,
I divorce the pastime of jealousy,
I divorce control,
I divorce the faith,
I divorce the virtue,
I divorce the rain,
I divorce the excuse,
I divorce the greed,
I divorce the need,
I divorce iniquity in this mother fuckin' bullshit life,
Just want it all to go away,
Just want to run away to die, take it, myself, my life
Text book fucking mental, off me and pitch me in a hole
I'll
always be your shadow,
And veil your eyes from states of ain soph aur,
I can't be the hero anymore,
I spit up on my plate and then I turn and walk away,
I spit up on my plate and I disrupt the family,
I spit up on my plate and I sever the entity,
And I feel your warm sun on my face
Separate .
Eclipse
you and bleed you strip you of your states of ain soph aur,
I need you,
It's always been this way, I push it all away,
From me
13. Prod
(Back
to top)
Emotions
inside us troubling,
The hatred inside us escalating,
The sickness inside us keeps us weak,
The masses inside of us suffering they are bleeding,
The calling inside us sick with greed,
The voices calling to us deafening we're not listening
Cannot
receive the obvious
Line up cattle and cut the necks
Swat at the flies omit disgust
The
leaders inside us posturing,
The pollution inside of us suffocating me,
The science inside us menacing
The will that's inside of us its dying end is coming
Cannot
receive the obvious
Line up cattle and cut the necks
Drain us of life and cleanse the mess
Wash me
off inside, wash me off inside
We're
killing ourselves killers
Goddamn we fucked up the circumstance,
Too late to save us from ourselves,
Callous minds against trust and confidence,
Too late to give a damn now
Too late to save us from ourselves, too late to make it all go away,
Too late to beg pardons from the mother, too late to give a damn
Now we'll
sit and wait
Wait wait
for the coming. of the end
Wait for the coming the killing the ending the plight of man
Deserving no mercy expelling by god's hand,
It's okay the ending it's over no more pain .
Emotion
the hatred the sickness the calling
14.
Pharmaecopia (Back
to top)
Does your
god come in a capsule,
To sedate you tear the walls down,
Headless prison cannibals chew,
to consume you bring the alien,
Halcium
and morphine,
5-methoxy-n, n-dimethyltryptamine,
Psilocybin, mescaline, aspirin, histomine,
Brushite, darvaset, valium, caffeine, cannabis, and LSD,
Ayahuasca, harmine give it all to me I want it
These are
just a few of my favorite things X 2
Trisolam
and zanex, serotonin, mdma, ibogaine, dopeamine,
Tetra-hydro-chloride, atenolol,
Amanita muscaria,
Boric oxide, arrabinitol, psilocin, and flamizine,
Cylotec and harmaline
Give it all to me I want it
Does your
god come in a capsule to sedate you,
Tear the walls down, headless prison,
Cannibals chew to consume you,
Bring the alien
You can't
kill me,
I'm already dead
Inside my hole,
Inside my head,
We just beg for any way to be sedated,
It's all about escaping,
Numb to me,
Numb body from this hell,
I can
feel them pushing, I can feel them pulling
I can feel them holding, I can feel them moving,
I can feel them prying, I can feel them prodding,
I can feel them breathing, I can feel them digging
I can feel them stabbing, I can feel them scoping,
I can feel them living, I can feel it,
Consume, take in, plunging, plumbing,
Instruments prying, aliens inside me,
Tooling the machine,
Intoxicating,
Feel it unfolding, riddles in me
It's all
about escaping, we just beg for any way to get away
Who do you bow down to, does your god come in a capsule or on a plate
They're trying to sedate you, swallow self and bring on the alien
You tried to kill me, I'm already dead to this world
I'm already dead to this world
15.
Under My Skin (Back
to top)
Nailed
inside my head,
Fuck this I don't need your shit,
All the lies deceit and arrogance,
Talk your shit like my life is some kinda game,
Like you fuckin' know me,
Just go far away and be small,
Run far away and be small,
Go lie in a hole and be small,
Thorns,
splinters, pushing,
Under my skin,
They want in,
Sharpened tongue to penetrate me,
If you
really think you got what it takes to be me,
Then walk a mile in the skin of my head case mental being,
So you want a piece of this life that belongs to me,
Well make a cut on the line and take a deeper look inside of the freak,
That is
me, fucker, come on,
Disturb,
search me, prying up all my scales
To get in lance the core to penetrate me,
So you
want inside of me,
So you want a piece of this,
So you want to tear me down, for your own selfish wants and needs
Disturb,
search me, prying, up all my scales,
To get in, lance the core to penetrate me,
So you
want inside of me
So you want a piece of me,
So you want to drag me down,
For your own selfish wants and needs
You were
there like a punk,
Just to get in my face,
Wanted in me wanted to be
Till I gave you a taste
Don't need your goddamn pressure
Frontin' stress I'm superman motherfucker
Without the "s" on my chest
Trying to step in my circle I'm leaving you purple and black
On your back drop your ass like a heart attack
Rippin' through your life like a motherfuckin'
Hurricane fist full of Novocain for the pain
You're nothing in my life in my head
You're nothing in my life in my land
Nailed inside my head
You're
under my fuckin' skin!
I have cleansed my life now of the people who pry
And threaten place always in my face I think it's time for them to
Go away always in my fuckin' space,
Always in my scene always in my sight,
Always in my way
You're
dead to me punk ass fuck .
There's
nothing left
16.
(K)now F)orever) (Back
to top)
Frozen
moments in time,
Stopped hourglass,
They predicate, what you will know,
Dispositions lie within,
And so do we,
Don't want to run.
Don't want to hide,
Renounce the prayers for inspiration,
If you dictate what I will be
Then smash my face upon the concrete I'm weary,
I feel
the stares piercing,
So sorry to soil your precious eyes,
Reflections spoon-feed you,
The bitterness and disgust that is me,
If you choose to reach out to lend to me,
I'll chew off your hand
I'm not
beggin' for your fuckin' change
I'm not beggin' for your fuckin' change
I'm in touch with myself,
All alone within myself,
All one. Alone
Do what
you will make it the whole of your law,
Burn down the faith that shadows life
And take a deeper look inside of what makes you
Pull down the shades internal light can be blinding
Brilliance
I'm not begging for your fuckin' change,
I'm just begging for a fuckin' change,
Complacence quenched of me
Lineage
is ending
I am
that, once was me, rising upward, guts wrenching
Sculpted cold, blistering, break the mold, sever me
Cut your
throat, be the martyr, bitter pills, that we swallow,
Take me,
chase me, swallow with me
Know,
now, know, now
Inside of
truth, coming to, close to me, ground consumes and embraces me
Now forever
Born
again,
I'm repositioning,
Self inside to self non-dimensional,
Lost to being,
I've recognized the cause,
Existence to come, alive now forever
I am once
was
...that is me
I am once was,
That is me
I'm
broken altered vacillating force,
Round square corners circles dance around wet figures,
Prisoner of time I'm no more,
Insight will guide us through the majesty of nothing,
It's like I'm touched with love by angel girl,
Let bastards rot in time for all their evil,
Let bastards rot in time for all their evil,
Let bastards rot in time
(Back
to top)
Kill I
Oughta
1.
Poop Loser (back
to top)
Your a
mother fuckin' piece of shit and you'll never amount to nothin...
(screaming and taunting can be heard in the backround. Also a baby
crying)
2. Seed
(back
to top)
Fall down
Cant pick myself up off the ground
Head down
I see catastrophy
And its right in front of me
Mother father please dont make me choose between you
I love both of you
Mother please, all i want to be is just little me
Father please, all i want to be is your son
No fair
Trespass the tiny mind of a child
Despair
In my world surrounds me
Its immersed me
Rips right through me
Remember
The day they told me-im so scared
Suffer
My wounds not healing
Mother please, all i want to be is just little me
Father please, all i want to be is your son
Sometimes
In dark my mind will roam
To a time
Ispent alone as a child, as a small boy
I remember a time as a child I looked into my mother's eyes one time.
I remember a time as a boy I looked at all the messes in my life
I remember a time as a child I, I looked into my father's eyes one time
I remember a time as a child and I look, and I scream, I still scream,
AND I SAY!!!
Look at what you did to me
See what you did to me
Look at what you did to me
See what you did to me
I died that day
All i want to say
Mother please, all I want to be is a little deep inside of you
Father please, all i want to be is little me, don't make me choose!
Mother please, all I want to be is a little deep inside of you
Tiny mind, they'll take a bite of, the suffering is because of you!
What now?
Fuck you!
What now?
Fuck you!
What now?
Fuck!
3.
Cultivate (back
to top)
Got the disease in my mind that chaos runs through in you
Guilty toys for your insides
Just plead and i'll conduct you
Believe in me, i'm the juice
Recieve from me the hand of truth
In still your trust i'll take you there
I penetrate and run in run-through
Feel it
so warm
Branded forearm
Synthetic high that drains you
Accelerated pulse
Blood rush through
you can't disarm
Mudvayne retoured
Inner mutiny lost tranquility
Broken people fixed again plumming christened with disorder
chosen people hooked in this trend
took a
spell to possess you... why??
You embrace me for the high
Unfocused black swells as you die
Inner icon solicits sympathy
Depated being struggles so desperatly
Im so outside myself
Breathless body betrays my cry for help
and so i lie listless and pacified
Rest in
earth,
Rest in peace
Await rebirth as i roll up my sleeve
Roll up my sleeve
Feel it It so warm
Branded forearm
Masticate you as i cultivate through
You're life i loathe,
Motherfucker!
Scrambled being your impressions leaking
Sins been bestowed in you
Do what I do just to see through you
Your life is death now
Consequenses been plowed under earth
Ashes to ashes dust to dust
Want you dead so much
4.
Some Assembly Required (back
to top)
Holy god
man
Well wont you lend me insight
To your counterfeited tyranny
Mouth fulls of christian view
Thou hath to be blind
Ends so plain to me
Out of body and beside myself
Sold out ministry
Holy god man
Hows wealth and the brood
Mislayed mind i'm in
From deceit that you induce
Descend to knees of lust
His holiness been brought
Imperils rise distinguished lies
God fall
All rise
Behold the heaven sent an angel to deprive
Your law
All lies
God fall
Baptized in dust is your soul
Holy god man
Im losing patience with you
Your sacreligious spells in mind
Confusion walks in front of you
Your miracles have deceased
Unpretnetious family's plead
Please heal our boy
Save our boy
All the false things your preach
Are all the fuckin things you've taken from me
What goes around comes back to you 7x
5.
I.D.I.O.T. (back
to top)
(kud
speax) This is a song about what I am a mother fuckin' idiot check it
out
Through
my skin you climb,
to my eyes
i say goodbye
now that you're on the inside
blinded eyes in front of you hide
fucked with me
I was an idiot
you fucked with me
and i havent done shit
all about everything that im against so fuck this i dont need your shit
life is pain and pain is my life
life is pain and pain is my life
in your mind I was just a novelty
so does this define how you feel towards me
do unto me what has been done to
you feed off the pain thats been reproduced
fucked with me
i was an idiot
fucked with me
and i didnt do shit i fuckin hurt so bad now,
so i think i'll just lie down...
i dont need you i just need me
i dont believe in you, so dont believe in me
pain pain go away, come again some other day
pain pain go away,
dont need this mother fuckin shit, now anyway
i dont need you i just need me
i dont believe in you, so dont believe in me
life is pain and pain is my life
i dont need you i just need me
i dont believe in you, dont believe in me
6.
Central Disposal (back
to top)
My
perspective on life is pain
Sponge
textured soul so porous i cant drain
I just absorb violations of the pledge
You swore to me your perjury
Detours the life of my child
Chicanery from you for me violates natural instincts in you
Dissolve does the sibling
Artificial sympathy
You braid the noose you hang me in guilt your guilt
You blame me septen up the empathy
Broken lover in your head
Mental material mother she left and dead
Glacial feeling inherited
Pathetic mode of principle
Now i see the industry where you belong is killing
My deception in life was you
You bring all the pain that im used to
Double vision is my view
Conditions that tear right through my mind pain..
In my head i harness
It keeps my faith frigid love..
In my body doesnt breathe hate..
dont know how much i fuckin hate you
Look what you've done to me
You won't leave me alone
Come back
No no no
(thankyou,
thankyou, thankyou...)
7.
Coal (back
to top)
my soul
simply wont bleed
coal blackened walls surround my scene
hardened, callous ive been stung by bees
forfeited courage keeps me in need
and i need your soul in black*, trust you rape and left me to see
*(dressed now, in black)?
my soul attacked it's innocence deaf and dumb
i cant hear the shit been preached to me
losses i cound, you rip through from my mind
and take my thoughts from me
my mind, my space inside im lost replaced bliss with catastrophy
heaven sends to you the seed my mind recieves and accepts deceit
my acceptence sometimes disturbing
my appearence shows no sympathy
me in this state of mind my balance off balance but i push through this
dark time i lay awake at night my body trembles
wrapped with vines
each tie that binds represents another
dream demise
oh fuck i need a handle in my life
I know that there is no esacape for me
This sweating i dont mind
Just fused with insanity
dark time i lay awake at night my body trembles
wrapped with vines
each tie that binds represents another
dream demise
oh fuck i need a handle in my life
...in my life
my soul has been caught in the mix of your plague
hardened, callous
ive been stung by bees
forfeited courage keeps me in needmy soul has been
caught in the mix of your plague
my life is meaningless now is it you that i thank
(thanks...late late later on motha fucker)
8. Fear
(back
to top)
Mr. P,
you have that funny little acidy taste in the back of your throat?
(gurgle) Like that? Uh-huh.
You can taste it? You know what that is? Uh-uh? Fear..
Feelings,
emotion inside us
People eat my dignity
Eating away, our insides
Alter themselves and they step out of skin
So darkness it surrounds the bee
Memories ressurrect and I pay
Remember WHAT!
Will remind what's RIGHT!
But the feelings inside us that give in to DIE!
Fear, FUCK YOU!
Fear, is inside you
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